Growing up, I was tormented by the dysfunctional and destructive environment I lived in at home. I hated the idea of having a disease in my mind when I was so young.
Before I called Lifeline, I was imprisoned in my own thoughts of self-destructiveness.
Suicide felt like the only option for my life at that time. Part of me, however, desperately
craved freedom and I made the call to Lifeline.
I clearly remember feeling that my life had purpose and there was a reason to stay alive after calling Lifeline.
I was so sick of the routines in the mental health system. But, Lifeline is so accessible, unintimidating and immediate. They listen and care without judgement.
My experiences with mental illness have scarred and impacted on my life. Yet they have brought out something in me that I didn’t even know was there -- resilience.
I have embraced the notion that, a perfect life is a messy one. Perfection is dull and lifeless; it led me to destruction and isolation. A messy life, however, is fuelled by love. It is full of hope and bursting at the seams with possibilities and adventure.
I pray that reading my story will be a reminder that your world can be overshadowed with darkness but still possess a spark of light. There is always hope. If you or someone you know is ever in crisis, please remember that at Lifeline there will be someone on the other end of the phone who will care and listen without judgement.